Climbing ‘mountains’

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The view from the balcony in Colorado Springs, the last night of the conference.

How do you climb a mountain? One footstep at a time? Perhaps, but likely after careful planning and calculation of distance and elevation, right? 

Well, climbing a mountain that’s 14,000 feet above sea level seems like a gentle walk to the fridge compared to how do you know what you’re supposed to do with your life and how do you do what you’re supposed to do with your life?  Yeah give me the mountain instead. Maybe we are supposed to approach life and the mountain the same way – one footstep at a time…

What the hell am I going to do with my life? I’ve asked myself this question many times and each time I set a goal and accomplished the things I set out to. I graduated college, I lived away from home, did some hard work on myself, got a good job, and ever since I have been waiting for life to ‘catch me’ and point me in a direction.

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Manitou Incline (Manitou Springs, Co.) .88 miles with an average grade of 45 percent and as steep as 68 percent in some pleacs. The incline gains over 2,000 ft in elevation in less than a mile.

It is not fair to say I have not accomplished much because there were challenging circumstances surrounding each of these milestones. And it is not fair to say to there is nothing left to accomplish because in some ways I feel like I’m just starting to find my way in life, while feeling completely lost.

So here I am again, what the hell am I going to do with my life? I don’t feel like I get to choose…I know that in some ways I do, but I’ve always felt lead with whatever path I have taken, so its uncomfortable to let go of that. My advisor/guru encourages me to figure out what it is I want to do or am meant to do. My first thought is I’m going to need a tremendous amount of help. The other thing she said – making mistakes is not a bad thing. It’s sometimes necessary and part of the plan. ok. awesome. The most definitive piece of information she gave me, mainly because the other answers I need have to come from me, be willing to take a risk – whatever that may be. I am game for risk taking and…

I am ready for this adventure. I’m ready to go looking for what it is I think I want and hopefully, come up with what God has intended me to be all along.

Fear will hold us back and destroy us, but only if we let it.

Not Me. Not today.

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